Alcohol almost destroyed my life.

The focus of the current blog is to inform the community of the risk it poses to consume alcohol, and the impairment that stems from misuse of alcohol in individuals with child sexual abuse histories who drink at elevated risk and become targets for sexual re-victimization. As a survivor of child sexual abuse I chose the wrong path because I didn't know how to cope with the pain and the after affects of this horrible crime. It's very sad to acknowledge that the choices I took in the past only brought more sorrow into my life. As I Remember back,  I would party all night and get so intoxicated to the point where I didn't know who I was or where I was. There were times I would give an opportunity for men to take advantage of this vulnerability and I would wake up naked and not knowing what happen or who's house I was in. How dangerous was that. This is very very dangerous. So many times I was re-victimized over and over because of my own mistakes. I was exposing myself to many more problems such as aids, std and unwanted pregnancies. I wanted to share this very personal time in my life even though many would hide this shameful past. But like I am known for being straight forward and truthful I share without shame my every aspect of my past life. I believe that out of the confession of our soul we can help many others who are lost and living this dangerous life. Alcohol almost destroyed my life. I was deeply trapped inside the web of this terrible addiction.There was simply no limits to my actions. I had no dignity, self-worth and self esteem left in me. It took years of working through this problem and much therapy to free myself from this addictive behavior. A behavior that only gave a temporary numbness to my pain but afterwards the pain was greater and I felt so alone. Don't allow your pain to take you into places that will only hurt you even more. Break away from all addictive and abusive cycles by making good decisions today. Please reach out and get help.

YOU CAN BECOME "ADDICTED"

Well, being abused is extremely painful, and as such, that pain is hard to cope with.The reasons might be because there may have been no one around to listen to your pain. YOU CAN BECOME "ADDICTED" Masturbation/Sex, Gambling, Strenuous exercise, Overworking, Eating disorders, Taking risks, including dangerous behaviors and violence. Have you felt out of control with any of the above? If your answer is yes to any of the above. Than it's time to look for other ways to deal with the pain. There are many positive things that you can do to release your anger and frustration. The first step to free yourself from addictions is to seek professional help. After you start attending therapy than you should look for something that fills the void, emptiness and unworthy feeling that sometimes we get caught up because of our past.The best way to battle against this feeling is to find a way to show your potential and all you can do. An activity that regains your self-esteem and empowers you to rise above. Examples- Advocating and doing community work. Writing your own book and sharing your story with the world. Help the homeless. Help the elderly. Help children. Resume your education and accomplish your dreams. (it is never too late) Learn how to play an instrument real well. (who knows you may be the next famous concertist) These are just a couple of examples but there are many more things that you can do to feel and know that you are worthy and capable of many great things. Don't let the past take a hold of you. You have the power and the control of your life now!